Me, Myself & I

I am not always as confident as I seem. There are many nights and many days when all I want is to be held. Always. Sometimes I don't want to talk about what is bothering me. Sometimes I just want a hug. Someone who will let me cry. I like when my friends cry in front of me, when people aren't afraid to show what they're really feeling. I don't like when people run from their true feelings because it doesn't do anyone any good.

I wear my heart on my sleeve, but I am not naive. I know what it feels like to be completely broken and I am all too familiar with what it means to be hurt. I know what it's like to see something funny and not laugh. I've been taken advantage of, used, and abused. My feelings have been blatantly disregarded. But I still believe that all people are good at heart. And my trust in people has not diminished. To be completely honest, I hope it never does. Ever.

I'm a girl who eats unlike some people. People often complain about my eating habit - Dalwin, you eat too much for a girl! Dalwin you eat like nobody's business. Woman, watch your what you eat! I do wish I'm like those models, skinny with no appetite. The end.

Unexpected Surprise! :)

Lemme be frank of one thing. I don't have many Punjabi friends. I can count with my fingers the number of Punjabi friends I really have. Well, excluding those I have on Facebook. They are my friends, but not really my friends. Friends, to me, are those who know you well,in and out. They are those people who care to know you, accept you for who you are and stick with you through thick and thin. I grew up having Chinese friends in school, that is how I learned Cantonese. I befriended the Malays and Indians when I started my college life back in 2005. I only started having Punjabi friends when I stepped into UUM. At first, it was really awkward. I didn't really speak much during the outings. They thought I was arrogant. Well, I don't blame them. It was my fault. Mum thinks I am an anti-social too. Well back to my story, yeah, my Punjabi friends are damm nice to be with. I enjoyed every lovely and crazy moments spent with them...miss them now! :(

I have two other Punjabi friends who are very special to me, yet I could never tell them. I met both of them in Facebook, yes, Facebook! They are not the ones who just say 'hi & bye' but they are the friends who actually can make my day. Although I didn't met them before, they made me smile, giggle, smirk in their very own way. The one I first met is Jasdave Singh who I used to call 'Dave' and eventually came to know that he is called 'Deybu' by his family! *chuckles* He is a Malaysian who has migrated to Canada with his family. I have never met him. Whenever we chat, he tells me about his lifestyle in Vancouver and Surrey, the seasons, the people, work and the Gurdwaras. He is very very brilliant in English, I mean he can really write and speak well! *respect*

Through Jasdave, I made another friend who I met in Penang for the first time. She is Balween Kaur and she is really demure and sweet. We went out twice while she was doing her practical in Adventist Penang. She is a Pharmacy student living in KL. I was sad when she left Penang. I thought I wouldn't be meeting her anytime soon since I rarely go to KL. And, yeah, I forgot to mention, I have never attended any Annual Camps which are organised for Sikh youths. No wonder, I never had any Punjabi friends right? Hmmph! Well, these two friends are like angels sent by God to come into my life.

And, back to the title of my post -- 'Unexpected Surprise'? Remember, Jasdave is living and working in Canada and he will only visit Malaysia in April 2011. That is what he always told me. Well, on 8th Sept, Balween called me. She told me that she will be dropping by for lunch in Kampar on her way to Ipoh. I was delighted! I told her that we'll meet up in gurdwara first since she only knows the way there! Fine, then at night, I was chatting with Jasdave and Ohh! I actually BRAGGED about the hols we are having now, the plan of Balween coming down and having lunch together. He sounded surprised and envious. That is what I wanted. *evil grin* Oh God! I tell you what,i thought I was dreaming when I saw Jasdave just now! I was astonished! He came back and I didn't know anything about it. It was an unexpected surprise, really. I had great time and ate very good food with both my angels! Love them, they are very the awesome! :)

:: Dedicated to my TEYL 2 Angels ::

I know that there have been times when people say "there are angels all around you." I believe that full heartedly. And the impact that they have in our everyday lives. We have always heard of angels who are unseen, yet leave us feeling their presence. There are angels all around us who are in plain sight. But sometimes we don’t take the time to acknowledge that they associate with us, or are right under our noses.

I have true angels in my life. Both seen and unseen. There are times when I am offered protection, or have a quick prompting to do something, or suddenly feel comforted when there is no one around, and I know that it is the unseen angels. I know that God, the Almighty has sent angels that attend us and comfort and help us, as we live our lives. We are His children, and He loves us, and wants us to feel as much comfort and love as humanly possible. I have angels in my life, who are seen. They surround me, and remind me why I am here. Why life is so important. They are there to teach me, and to understand the things that I cant handle alone. I know that I have been blessed with angels all around me, to help me in the moments when I feel alone. They are truly gifts from my Heavenly Father, and mean so much more to me than anything the world has to offer.

I love my angels without wings, and I do not know what I would do without them. You guys make every day of my life beautiful, and worth breathing! I love you my angels! Muaxxx!

Shopping trip turned out scary! :-P

It was actually an unplanned shopping trip! This is how it started....
It was during lunch time when the electricity in our block got cut off! We were frustrated, it was really very hot and we decided to go pigging out somewhere nearby! We went to fill our empty stomachs in Jaya. Puvi and Dharshini were still in their cohort tees! And, the great Kamini wore her 'tandas slippers'! :P

After eating the finger-licking good Indian food, I spontaneously told them "Lets Times Square!" and I was smirking since none of them were dressed for it! I was surprised they agreed! We were excited in fact since we have never been there though many people told us there is nothing there! Being the penyibuks we naturally are, we wanted to "check that place out"! Kononnya! Hahah! And trust me, that place is empty! There is nothing there! Its a dead & empty shopping complex! Even the drinks at the 'Swensons' cafe there are kinda tasteless and not worth the money! The only thing we did there was playing games at the so very lame arcade! Haih!

Not enough of wasting time in Times Square, we headed to the Prangin Mall! Being the crazee gals we are, we went into a few boutiques, tried out a few clothes and went out empty handed because of our indecisive attitude! Had dinner then and decided to leave at about 8.45pm! So then this is what happened at the 1st floor! :D

We spotted a pretty, demure-looking Malay girl. We were stunned with her sweet look and were praising her..

Puvi : My neighbour looks exactly like her, but she has three children.

*We were going down on the escalator when that conversation was taking place. I was standing next to Dharshini and suddenly saw a weird looking he-she behind us. He-she had the most hideous hairdo ever, and wore very long African type earrings. I knowing some broken Tamil told the gals "behind Dharsh" in Tamil. Before they could even turn.....

He-She : *shouting* Don't simply talk about people okay??! Next time give birth only to one child okay!

All of us : Excuse me, we are not talking abt you!

He-She : *with scary face and fingers pointing at us* You think I'm deaf ah? You think I'm a retard izit?

We were scared by then. People were looking at us and he-she was quite loud. Just as we reached the ground floor, in the huge crowd there, he pointed at us and shouted 'You BITCH!'
We were astounded! Wth man! We didnt even kacau u, nor said anything abt u! It was indeed awkward to be labeled 'bitch' in public! *smirks* Then, we ran to the car park, jumped into the car and sped off!

Then, we figured out the case and solved the maze! :-P
Tht he-she actually perasan tht we were talking abt him-her...when actually Puvi was telling abt her neighbour who looks exactly the same like the Malay girl which we saw earlier. This he-she pulak thought tht we were insulting him-her saying that Puvi's neighbour looks the same, but got 3 children...and this he-she cant beranak ryte...and coincidentally when Puvi was talking abt her neighbour and I coincidentally spotted him just behind us, this he-she thought it was him-her we were refering to! Gile la! :D

milenge milenge - destiny at its best! :)

MILENGE MILENGE :)

At times we go to places alone
The distance between us just seems to grow
Our souls will always be together
And someday I know we will meet for sure

Milenge milgene haan milenge milenge
Aap se yakeenan milenge milenge
Ho sohniya mannmoniya
Milenge milgene haan milenge milenge

Milenge Milenge - We shall meet! Milenge Milenge is a delightful fairytale of a romantic comedy that will make you fall in love all over again! It will make you think of that special one that you have in your hearts! This story is basically an unbashed mix of "serendipity" and "only you". Its all about how fate starts playing tricks with people...and, I am in love with the title song and I can sing it all day long! *smirks*

I dunno why this song is stuck in my mind for almost a week now! I listen to it almost everyday on my Ipod - while walking to and fro classes, while jogging, before sleeping and whenever possible. My songs don't shuffle anymore. Maybe coz I have never seen or met him for months now :'( I miss just to see him, his kinda "messy" and geeky look! hahah! That is why I get my hopes uplifted whenever I listen to this song! It says - we shall meet, I shall meet YOU for sure! But, I really dunno when...Yes, I believe in destiny! Well, most of us do, right? It was fate I met you, it was fate we became friends, and it was also fate that fell for you! It is magical to fall in love...I am not sure if destiny will bring us together? For now, I am sure someday we will definitely meet! xD

My story...it is well a syrupy convolution of fate and destiny! No wonder, I love Milenge Milenge! Ahaks! :)

P.M.S :'(

In reality, I am slowly losing my mind. Underneath the guise of smile, gradually I'm dying inside. Friends ask how I feel and I lie convincingly coz I don't want to reveal the fact that I am suffering. So I wear my disguise till night when I hear the sentimental songs on my Ipod. That is when I turn down all the lights, break down and cry :'(

Those memories are immortal and your image constantly lingers in my heart. It is the loneliest feeling in this world to find yourself standing up when everyone is sitting down. Walking down the empty streets listening to your own footsteps. Blinds are drawn and I feel like the doors are locked against me. And, I am not sure whether I am walking towards something or just walking away...

Imissyou! :'(

ORANG BODOH!!

My dear roommate had to go back to her hometown of an emergency last Sunday evening. And, because of the pathetic military-like maktab rules, she was expected to come back the next day itself. So, she told me that she will be taking a flight from KLIA at 930p.m and will be reaching Penang about 1030p.m....

Since she was still in a state of shock with the death of her close relative, my friends, Dharsh and Anis and I have decided to fetch her from the Bayan Lepas Airport. We left our hostel about 1015pm after having some group discussions. Being responsible teacher trainees in our beloved maktab, we decided to inform the guards at the main gate that we might come in 10 to 15 minutes past 11 since the curfew is at 11...

So Dharsh and I went out of the car to inform the guards and I was doing the talking...explaining about the reason my roommate had to went back and all. Their expressions showed that they were kinda reluctant! C'mon, we are just going to pick her up and due to the checking-out and all, we are bound to be a lil' bit late!

That one bloody guard was idiotic and a born pervert!! He kept on staring at us up and down, up and down continuously! And, I felt like slitting his throat when he cynically asked me "Cikgu boleh pakai macam ini ke??" Such a rascal! I was just wearing a plain brown LONG jeans and a three quarter orange tee! He is memang an ORANG BODOH! What do expect us to wear then?! Typical minded moron! We are already wearing etchical formal attire to attend the lectures...are they expecting us to wear the same clothes even when we go out??!!

I don't want to see that moron again!