Me, Myself & I

I am not always as confident as I seem. There are many nights and many days when all I want is to be held. Always. Sometimes I don't want to talk about what is bothering me. Sometimes I just want a hug. Someone who will let me cry. I like when my friends cry in front of me, when people aren't afraid to show what they're really feeling. I don't like when people run from their true feelings because it doesn't do anyone any good.

I wear my heart on my sleeve, but I am not naive. I know what it feels like to be completely broken and I am all too familiar with what it means to be hurt. I know what it's like to see something funny and not laugh. I've been taken advantage of, used, and abused. My feelings have been blatantly disregarded. But I still believe that all people are good at heart. And my trust in people has not diminished. To be completely honest, I hope it never does. Ever.

I'm a girl who eats unlike some people. People often complain about my eating habit - Dalwin, you eat too much for a girl! Dalwin you eat like nobody's business. Woman, watch your what you eat! I do wish I'm like those models, skinny with no appetite. The end.

Unexpected Surprise! :)

Lemme be frank of one thing. I don't have many Punjabi friends. I can count with my fingers the number of Punjabi friends I really have. Well, excluding those I have on Facebook. They are my friends, but not really my friends. Friends, to me, are those who know you well,in and out. They are those people who care to know you, accept you for who you are and stick with you through thick and thin. I grew up having Chinese friends in school, that is how I learned Cantonese. I befriended the Malays and Indians when I started my college life back in 2005. I only started having Punjabi friends when I stepped into UUM. At first, it was really awkward. I didn't really speak much during the outings. They thought I was arrogant. Well, I don't blame them. It was my fault. Mum thinks I am an anti-social too. Well back to my story, yeah, my Punjabi friends are damm nice to be with. I enjoyed every lovely and crazy moments spent with them...miss them now! :(

I have two other Punjabi friends who are very special to me, yet I could never tell them. I met both of them in Facebook, yes, Facebook! They are not the ones who just say 'hi & bye' but they are the friends who actually can make my day. Although I didn't met them before, they made me smile, giggle, smirk in their very own way. The one I first met is Jasdave Singh who I used to call 'Dave' and eventually came to know that he is called 'Deybu' by his family! *chuckles* He is a Malaysian who has migrated to Canada with his family. I have never met him. Whenever we chat, he tells me about his lifestyle in Vancouver and Surrey, the seasons, the people, work and the Gurdwaras. He is very very brilliant in English, I mean he can really write and speak well! *respect*

Through Jasdave, I made another friend who I met in Penang for the first time. She is Balween Kaur and she is really demure and sweet. We went out twice while she was doing her practical in Adventist Penang. She is a Pharmacy student living in KL. I was sad when she left Penang. I thought I wouldn't be meeting her anytime soon since I rarely go to KL. And, yeah, I forgot to mention, I have never attended any Annual Camps which are organised for Sikh youths. No wonder, I never had any Punjabi friends right? Hmmph! Well, these two friends are like angels sent by God to come into my life.

And, back to the title of my post -- 'Unexpected Surprise'? Remember, Jasdave is living and working in Canada and he will only visit Malaysia in April 2011. That is what he always told me. Well, on 8th Sept, Balween called me. She told me that she will be dropping by for lunch in Kampar on her way to Ipoh. I was delighted! I told her that we'll meet up in gurdwara first since she only knows the way there! Fine, then at night, I was chatting with Jasdave and Ohh! I actually BRAGGED about the hols we are having now, the plan of Balween coming down and having lunch together. He sounded surprised and envious. That is what I wanted. *evil grin* Oh God! I tell you what,i thought I was dreaming when I saw Jasdave just now! I was astonished! He came back and I didn't know anything about it. It was an unexpected surprise, really. I had great time and ate very good food with both my angels! Love them, they are very the awesome! :)

:: Dedicated to my TEYL 2 Angels ::

I know that there have been times when people say "there are angels all around you." I believe that full heartedly. And the impact that they have in our everyday lives. We have always heard of angels who are unseen, yet leave us feeling their presence. There are angels all around us who are in plain sight. But sometimes we don’t take the time to acknowledge that they associate with us, or are right under our noses.

I have true angels in my life. Both seen and unseen. There are times when I am offered protection, or have a quick prompting to do something, or suddenly feel comforted when there is no one around, and I know that it is the unseen angels. I know that God, the Almighty has sent angels that attend us and comfort and help us, as we live our lives. We are His children, and He loves us, and wants us to feel as much comfort and love as humanly possible. I have angels in my life, who are seen. They surround me, and remind me why I am here. Why life is so important. They are there to teach me, and to understand the things that I cant handle alone. I know that I have been blessed with angels all around me, to help me in the moments when I feel alone. They are truly gifts from my Heavenly Father, and mean so much more to me than anything the world has to offer.

I love my angels without wings, and I do not know what I would do without them. You guys make every day of my life beautiful, and worth breathing! I love you my angels! Muaxxx!