indulgence in a little nostalgia

sometimes it seems long ago. at times, just yesterday. a life changing meeting has set a million things in play. there are things i have always longed to tell you, things i have always loved to share. one sure thing is i feel you with me often no matter who is there. if ever you doubt do i ever think of then, the answer is, yes! you are always on my mind. your charming face crosses my mind every now and then. those moments, a respite...natural, serene and free...blindsided, shaken and requited...bobs up in my mind every second.

illuminating. creating...so much was found and so much was lost. how so much every single day i am going to miss it, miss the best thing that have ever happened to me. it is like something of the fantasy which was more real than real. it spilled over into daily life while spinning all the wheels. i often send you blessings, all that i can do, as it should. be happy, healthy and thriving. life is beautiful and good i still believe. i miss you, i really do. xD

Happy Fathers Day!

Its Fathers' Day today - 20th June 2010! It is a day honouring fathers, celebrating fatherhood and strengthening paternal bonds. Personally, I feel that there is not much commercialization of Fathers' Day compared to Mothers' Day. This is quite unfair since dads too play an important role in families and even in societies. I was at a bakery shop looking for special cakes made specially for Fathers' Day celebration and the girl there told me "Sorry, we don't bake any special cakes for Fathers' Day, only Mothers' Day!" I was kinda sad to hear that. C'mon, Dads are special too! They are our heroes! :)

I expressed my heartfelt Fathers' Day wishes to the greatest Guruji, the 10th Master of the Sikhs, Sri Guru Gobind Singh Ji Maharaj! :) Happy Fathers' Day to my dearest daddy, Mr Jaswant Singh who taught me what true unconditional love and dedication really means. He is the man and for his love, I am eternally grateful! We had a simple yet filled with love surprise for him! Got a cream cake with fruits topping and a bottle of sparkling juice to celebrate. The expression on his face - priceless! Oh yess, gave him an early Fathers' Day gift two days ago - a GPS which I bought at the Tech Fair held at the UTAR campus. I knew it would be the perfect gift since he recently bought a new car and he often travel for business purposes. Just like I presumed, he was extremely happy and astonished! He fixed it the next day itself before traveling to Penang! =)

20th June also marks the 10th year death anniversary of my paternal grandfather who has gone to meet the maker on the 20th June 2000. It has been 10 years and he is deeply missed by everyone. He left us unsaid and will always be a part of us till we reunite in a new cycle soon again! We will be having his anniversary prayers at the Gurdwara later in the evening. I love you dadaji! Happy Fathers' Day to both my late dadaji and late nanaji! Miss you both heroes! And, to all the cool dads out there, Happy Fathers' Day!! Have a day filled with love, joy and happiness! God bless! :)

~ Jouney back to the Pearl of the Orient ~

Today, I have been receiving different information about the registration at Institut Pendidikan Guru Malaysia, Kampus Pulau Pinang (new name). All of the sudden, I feel so really excited to go back to Penang! *smirks* I actually miss Penang alot! And, I love our maktab! Yeah, I still call it 'Maktab' though it has been upgraded to 'Institute'. The memories of the first three years spent there still bobs up vividly in my mind. We were immatured back then! Well, I was! ^^

Going back there is exciting coz I miss the recess time and the Wednesday morning assembly! Assembly?! Yes, u read it right! We have a weekly assembly where we do the tai-chi exercize, sing the National Anthem, Penang State Anthem, maktab song and also 'Guru Malaysia'! I was usually very excited to sing the maktab and 'Guru Malaysia' songs! Seriously bersemangat! But, i loathed those assemblies to the core because we had to stand under the hot scorching sun and also do some marching! I was always late to assemblies...never early! I remember there was this one day when me and my three other friends were extremely late for assembly and we were sure enough we would be getting the ticket to HEP - Surat Salah Laku! So, when we saw that the assembly has already started, me made a U-turn to find a hideout till the assembly dismisses! Thinking that we were very smart, we sneaked into the RECSAM building! We sat at the corridor and chatted all the way about our "very smart" act! Too bad, one of our maktab lecturer found us there!! We were like "shit!" She escorted us back to the field and all eyes were on us! My face was red I know and I wish I could just run away from that place! The HEP officer issued all of us the 'Surat Salah Laku' infront of all the students! Oh yeah, we were standing like the "Maktab's Next Top Models" on the stage! LMAO! Not only that, we were reprimanded and given a warning by our coordinator for "spoiling" TEYL's good name! ;O I am so never gonna forget this experience..I still smile sheepishly when I think about it!

I am going to be a good girl when I go back now! :) I will try my best to be early for the assemblies and the 8am classes! I have too, or else, die! Things are gonna be different from UUM. I can no longer bunk any classes without valid proof, can no longer curi-curi wear jeans to lectures (PS, Maktab's lecturers are very observant).... Rules are rules, right? Back in maktab, we were constantly reminded that we are future teachers, the catalyst of the country's development! But, not really in UUM! We rarely behaved like how teachers are supposed to! :P

So, finally, in two weeks time, I will be there! The place where I first stepped in proudly on the 4th July 2005! I love that place, I really do. I believe I am going to have so much to enjoy and cherish during this final year. I feel happier coz I will get to see my coursemates more often in maktab! I love you all TEYLians Cohort 4! Muahx! :)

Penang, await our arrival!!

- can't wait to drive on the Penang bridge -

i-so-dont-like-her!

I hated my day at work! I seriously did, for the first time since I started work as a temporary assistant in UTAR. i felt so really miserable and really felt like screaming out loud. The Chinese lady in my office, Ms Fussy (bukan nama sebenar) is a racist, a bloody racist! ^^

** Two days ago, I was assigned to file in some examination moderation forms into the Unit files of each subject. Well, I did without much hesitation though I had a hard time flipping the thick pile of papers in the files. My hands were painful at the end of the task yet I did not grumble much. And, guess what, this morning when I stepped into the office, she gave me a stack of results analysis to be filed into those same thick files again! Again, can you just believe this! There are about more than fifty files altogether and they are damn thick and heavy! I was cursing in my heart, what am I? Her slave? Can't she just gave me those result analysis sheets together with the moderation forms? It was just there in the cabinet, okay! Geram tol! I had too, well, obey her instructions and wasted about 4 hours just doing that! My hands were really swollen... :-(

**Ahh, why did I call her a racist? Yes, she is! First of all, when I just started work, she who did not know that I speak and understand Cantonese was speaking to another Chinese colleague about me which was indeed hurtful! But I was smart enough! The next day at work, I greeted them in Cantonese and even spoke to them using their mother tongue! Trust me, you should have seen their faces! Haha! Priceless...

And then, two days ago, on Monday, a new staff joined office, to be specific, a Chinese lad! He will be working there permanently as an Administrative Assistant. He is nice and he helps me around too! So, this morning, when I had to do that damn filing, I requested that Chinese lad to lend me a hand. He did, for 3 minutes I think, and that Miss Fussy called him to do some typing task (key-in student data) and making a few calls to students. Easy job! He finished his task within an hour and came to help me again. I guess only he understood how difficult was it for me to lift those thick and heavy files. Buttt, that lady called him again for some not important task! Hello, he is a guy who I believe has more stamina to lift and flip those files and why do you keep giving him the typing task?! Grrrrr! I was already doing that task for the second time! I really wish I could smack that lady! Such a racist, right? She should rot in hell!

I am glad I am quitting soon! I wouldn't have to see her fat face again. I think maybe she is depressed I am quitting! She would lose a "slave"! Goodbye lady!

Welcome Abroad!

Monday blues? Well, it doesn't really apply to me! I am just too free at work, yes, I did not do anything since I signed in at 8.30am! Instead, I have been sneaking into unknown blogs reading personal flights, experiences and dilemmas that people go through. I even read the blogs of two of my coursemates, Awal & Shah, mostly about their feelings and experiences too! A question struck me...why do people actually blog? Concluding from what I have been reading, blogging is a tool of expressing feelings as well as sharing experiences!

And the next thing I did was, click on -create blog-! Seriously, I have no idea what was I up to, perhaps this is the effect of ultimate boredom at work! Ah ha! Now that I have a blog, I will be scribbling down whatever I have been feeling or experiencing! Tadaa!

Welcome abroad, Princess in Distress! :)