Goodbye; Welcome!

Here comes 2012 and rolling in with it will be a tsunami of New Year's resolutions. My New Year resolutions are always the same classics—losing weight, getting fit, studying harder and being kinder, saving more etc. I hardly achieved any of them because they lasted only for the first one or two months. "Hangat-hangat tahi ayam". Hehe. It's a shame I'm still working on my 2011's resolutions when it's time to bid goodbye already. :D

Almost everyone make promises to improve themselves at the beginning of each New Year. It has become quite a part of our New Year celebrations and 2012 is not going to be an exception, defo! The beginning of every year brings in new hope and enthusiasm. I'm looking forward to a new beginning and hoping for things to improve from this year. It's indisputable we like to forget about our pasts and its daunting memories and wish for a new start. Hence, New Year is always celebrated with pomp and joy by every race around the world. :)

#2011 has been the best year for me, I would say. I achieved almost all my dreams and good things came my way. All praises to my dearest God and family! However, New Year brings in new promises. Hence, it can’t hurt to plan ahead for my New Year 's resolutions which will help make me a better person in 2012 and years to come!

I'm gonna turn 25 in 2012! The number is getting bigger and so are my responsibilities in life. Thus, this year I decided on some real serious resolutions. Seriously serious? :)

* I will focus more on giving than taking.
* I will not crib about things, would rather remain content for what has life given to me.
* I will stand by my loved ones, come what may. It is not a resolution but a vow.
* I will get more organized - work planning, punctuality
* I will enjoy life to the fullest.
* I will learn something exciting/ new
* I will help others (students) achieve their dreams
* I will tame the bulges on my body. (Fitness all the way lah)


Welcome 2012! Please be extremely great and memorable. Dear God, please don't ever let go my hand. Happy New Year!

31.12.2011

A Totally Creepy Encounter

My cousins from Puchong came down ever since I'm on leave. That night, I drove them to Aj's house. We chit-chatted till past midnight. When we came back, we continued pillow-talking in my living room. Talked about almost everything - childhood, school-hood, friends, enemies, marriage life and even death. We were exchanging facts we knew about death and were expressing our innate fear of dying. We were also talking about how death snatches our loved ones in an instant - just like how we lost a few cousins in a month this year. :(

From death, we started talking about why our young family members die only in accidents. From my uncles to cousins, all lost their lives in accidents. We started talking about Karan, my cousin bro who saw a spirit a week before he died in a tragic accident. So, we got carried away and started talking about spirits - good & bad, ghosts. Very bad. We were so engrossed we did not realize it was already 4.00am.

We heard footsteps. My dad was awake to go to the washroom, we guessed. Abruptly, we switched off the lights and pretended to be asleep on the sofa. It was so funny that we were giggling mischievously under our blankets. When my dad went back to sleep, we got up and we still did not feel sleepy, so we cooked maggi. My cousin still continued about Karan's encounter with the spirit. I got goosebumps listening to her and God's swear, my heart was beating fast. Just then, we heard the door bell rang once. I felt dead. We were all dumbfounded and we quietly got into our blankets, hugged each other tightly and slept. I couldn't sleep. My eyes kept on moving all over the living room. I was shivering in actual fact wondering who that could be.

The next morning (today), we woke up quite early to have breakfast together. We narrated the incident to my parents coz my dad knew we were awake the entire night. And, at that very particular moment, I witnessed another astounding incident. The door bell rang! My sis thought we had a visitor, she dashed to the door to see who that was but there was no one. +_+

I did not want to think much about it. I had enough last night. So, I had fun playing scrabble with my cousins and bid them goodbye when they left just now. When I went on Facebook after that, I saw Karan's friend's status - "Happy Birthday Karan. Wish you were with us."

Dub dab dub dab. God, I will never ever talk such stories anymore. The end.

I had a bad dayyy!

Foul words were exchanged. I felt impure for using such words after long. Hee. Anyway, let bygones by bygones. I know people who truly love me for who and what I am. My life is simply perfect coz my loved ones do not judge me.

I cried. Alot. My eyes were red and it was creepy to see such look after ages. Gahh. Just at that moment, I received a text from my dear one, " Look there is always a reason behind everything, if you are living for someone or ones happiness, nonetheless, in this world we are all tied to something called "attachment". We are here to indulge in our daily activities, little we remember that we are responsible for our own destiny. Do what u think is right, live the way you feel that it gives you happiness, do respect others opinion BUT decision is strictly yours! When you feel happiness within you, than you are a winner! My love and blessings with you always."

Very wise words. I shall carry them in my heart for lifetime. :) Thanks to all for making me a better person in one day. I don't need LOSERS in my life coz he thinks I'm a WINNER. Winners are always hated and envied, indisputable fact of life. Boooo!

More importantly, Buzz said we have GOD, The Almighty with us. She's younger than me, but wiser in thought I must say. Others would have called/texted me merely to know about the conflict, but she send me something very comforting. You made my day, errr, no, night! *hugs*

Those who hold grudges against me or can't tolerate my bitterness, please feel free to remove me from your list. I'd be pleased and way much peaceful.


Happy holidays!!

**Btw, my dear one also reminded me that GOD resides in all souls, so no foul words allowed after this. Yes, my pleasure. :) ^_^

Pieces of Shit

The bitch's switch has been flipped. No one has triggered my emotions for months until today. They've hurt me. Dudes, it's big time you guys grow up before shit explodes in your faces. I always speak my mind, the truth and facts, and if you happen to be the one pissing me and my friends off, you're bound to dislike what's gonna come out of my mouth. Anyway, HATERS GONNA HATE! Noted.

Mr Syed, you might be an effing runner but dude, remember, dynamites comes in small packages.

And, Mr Afiq, don't bark for no reason. If I needed your opinion or lame joke, I would have kicked your kennel.

I can't change the way I am, the way I think, but if I've offended you..Good! Coz I don't give a f*ck!

Is done! Caring, feeling and giving a shit..but then again, what's the point? These people never appreciated me when I was studying with them and nor do they now. I tried to be nice, but they screwed me over? Okay fine, screwed them over now by removing their shit faces from my list. Just coz I studied for 6 years with you guys doesn't mean I gotta tolerate your bloody mouths and attitude for my entire life. You guys are better out coz I won't take crap in my list anymore.

Oh ya, Awalludin another laser-mouthed dude who never uses his brain before speaking. What he said to me months ago is still bobbing in my mind and will be forever. "Hey Dalwin, kenapa ada kacang kat muka awak?" Awal, KARMA is gonna fuck you hard. I was speechless at that moment but the sound of silence can be real deafening.

Goodnight. Peace Out. :)

Dare to Dream.

I used to ask God for the ability to dream. Big, and perchance, more practical dreams. I talk big, dream bigger, but I probably have the heart of a mouse. And in all my idealistic blunders occasionally I find that perhaps the silliest dreams come true more often than not.

I loved living my life through the experiences of others. Not that my own lacked in flavor or even drama, just maybe even my heart transcends that of my own. I've cried watching people do well, cried watching them grow, cried along with them as they too wept, and had my heart broken many a time for heartbreak that wasn't mine.

I used to want to fix people, and how much that attracted me to them. Not that I didn't need any fixing or that I was perfect, but that my brokenness wanted, in fact, desired me to save them, fix them, make them better. I used to fall head over heels over a man I cannot fix, or who had no desire to be fixed. I think about the way I enslaved myself to him, loving him from a distance so great it only appeals in my imagination. That being the way things were, I'm glad I'm out of that mess. Not to say that I'm not the same person that I was then. I still want to dream big. :)

I don't know what my life will become in the years to come. So much of my hopes and dreams lie on the balance between whatever and whenever. But to be really honest, I've never been so sure.

But after all these years I suppose all He wanted me to know was not that I needed the ability to dream. I've already had the ability to dream.

All I needed was the bravery to dream, the faith to see it come true, and the wisdom to know it has when I finally see it. #ilove2011

TimeFlies.

Heyya!!

I'm kinda sleepy now so this post is gonna be very brief.

Firstly, I LOVE UiTM.
* Salam 1Malaysia, Salam Perak AmanJaya, Salam UiTM di hatiku. ;)

There'll be a huge Language Karnival which UiTM Perak is gonna organize soon and I'm kinda occupied with the responsibilities. Btw, for the very first time, I'm given the opportunity to be the Master of Ceremony for a formal function - the opening of the carnival and I'm so excited! Never been given such opportunity before coz all the opportunities went to the attractive ones. So many VVIPs are gonna attend the event and I've been entrusted with this responsibility. Gonna give my best shot! :))


I made my staff card already! Yippee. The story :
When I first went to make the card, the staff at Bhgn Sistem Maklumat Bersepadu thought I was a Masters student so he made a card with the blue background. So, when I went back to my office, my colleagues LOL when they saw my card. So, I went back there to make my lecturer card with the red background. The staff said "Aik, ingatkan student!". Okay fine, I know I look young. Thank you.

What else? Oh yeahhh. Saturday was so so long! Had so-called Taklimat Kerjaya for fresh lecturers. Bosan nak mampus. But, the most interesting quote of that day was from the Timbalan Rektor, "Don't ever leave UiTM. This is the platform for your career." Okay noted, Dato'. :)

Ok bye. Love to all.

Life Goes On!

Hey all. We meet again in the blessed month of December! :)

I seriously don't want 2011 to come to an end. Many good things happened this year - the year kicked off with many good news and good things happening to me and family throughout the year. Despite some hurdles and obstacles that are bound to come in life, 2011 has been a pretty good year. For instance, I graduated with flying colours and managed to secure a job, a job that I always dream of.

Working life has been treating me well. Though it's such a pain to wake up at 6.30am, I'm getting used to it now. It'll be habitual sooner or later I guess. I love my working environment and my colleagues are so cool! They remind me of my friends, all the time. They like the way I converse in BM and are often stunned with the "powderful" BM vocab of mine. All thanks to my TEYLians! When I go for lunch, my colleagues are so concerned about my vegetarian food just like how my dear friends used to be. I miss my TEYL mates heaps! xoxo!

My "kiddos" are very decent and fun people to teach! There is Azam in my class who reminds me of Aje, there is Zul Helmi who reminds me of Zul and Shazrin who looks really like Remy. There is a Art & Design Diploma guy named Azizul who is as lazy as Aslam seriously. He has the same sleepy look and I've gotta run after him for the weekly reflections. Oh yes, I make them write reflections just like how I used to write for Miss Loke! Heee. It's such a pleasure to read their reflections, so damn honest even when they write good things about their lecturer. This is for real. :D

A girl in my class has handwriting similar to Buzzy's. She's quite passive but writes well. Exactly like Buzzy. I miss Buzzy, totes!

These new people who came into my life just recently has made me miss my 6 years with my dearest friends. I wish and pray all of them are always healthy and safe.

Life goes on. Goodnight!

One Week. Great.

Fuhhh! Finally. Some rest.

Been extremely busy for the past one week. Started with prayers at Gurdwara since last Friday-Sunday, Gurdwara gotong-royong on Monday, Prayers at Tapah Gurdwara on Tuesday, and prayers at Kampar Gurdwara from Wed-Sun! Prayers & prayers - feeling so much peace and tranquility in mind and heart. We celebrated our First Guru's - Sri Guru Nanak Dev Ji's birthday by expressing our love and gratitude for Him.

Below is an excerpt of the US President, Barack Obama's best wishes to all the Sikhs on our special occasion. So proud of him to actually acknowledge Sikhs although we are the minority. We hardly get this kind of treatment in Malaysia. Sadly, some do not even know/take effort to find out about Sikhism and their celebrations. But never mind, thanks Obama! :)

Washington: Sending best wishes to the Sikh community on the birth anniversary of Guru Nanak Dev, US President Barack Obama on Thursday said that people can draw inspiration from his message of equality, honesty and helping those in need.

"As Sikhs across America and around the world celebrate the life of Guru Nanak, all of us can draw inspiration from his message of equality, honesty, and helping those who are in need," Obama said in a statement.

"I send my best wishes to all those observing the anniversary of the birth of Guru Nanak Dev Ji, the first Sikh Guru," he said.

"On this occasion, we are reminded of the fundamental principles of Sikhism, including the equality of all people, the sanctity of living an honest life, and the importance of service to our neighbours," Obama said.

Read more at: http://www.ndtv.com/article/india/all-of-us-can-draw-inspiration-from-guru-nanak-obama-148742&cp

Besides having prayers this entire week, something else happened too. I got a call from Pn.N from UiTM Perak. She told me that they were impressed with my presentation on "Presentation Skills" in UiTM Tapah and would like to hire me as a permanent lecturer there. I was very very shocked actually. Lucky me! I told her about the posting, bond and everything yet she insisted on joining UiTM as I''ll have better perks. Told my parents, they were happy for the offer as it's near to home and told me to seize the opportunity coz God decides the best for me. I was asked to go to UiTM Perak (Main Campus) on Monday to fill up some forms, on Wednesday for Mock Teaching to a group of Diploma students and I was being observed by Pn.N (the coordinator), the Dean and an Indian lecturer. They interviewed me for nearly half an hour and their questions were "amazing"! I was asked mostly about grammar!! (Wanted to bury myself at that time)

One interesting question - You did TEYL. How different it is to deal with YL and other SLL? I crapped for the answer. And they were actually impressed ! "You are convincing, Dalwinder." That's the response I got. *wink*

Got a call next day. Passed the Mock Teaching and interview! The rector wanted to meet me on Friday (11.11.11) at 8am. Another interview! By the rector! *deep shit* So, there I was again waiting for the rector at the Bougainvillea Room at the library. Waited and waited and she only called me in at 11am! It was pretty tensed in there! So many questions were thrown to me like fire-bombs. Thank God I did not stutter! She even told me the pay per month and I nearly choked! Even for ONE hour extra class I conduct, I'd be given RM100 per hour. So, do your Maths to know my pay. (Oh, I'm not sure yet about the appointment coz Pn.N will be calling me this week to let me know how I did). Hehehe.

Seriously, if God has brought this to me, I leave it to Him to decide. I do not mind if I'm not appointed, but I would say it was an incredible experience! At least now I know the procedures and the stages of interviews a person have to go through to be appointed as a lecturer.

Very sleepy. Goodnight!

# the story of my pay cheque

I feel so blessed today. So so blessed. I thank Lord the Almighty for blessing me an opportunity to serve the kids of Yayasan Anak Yatim Piatu Darul Aitam (Busarah), Temoh. *love*

It was four days ago when I received my pay cheque for facilitating the Asasi students Language Camp in UiTM Tapah. I was excited as I already have plans in my mind on how to spend the money. For once, I wouldn't be considering myself broke! Wheee!

On the way back home, I stopped at a traffic light somewhere in Temoh and on my left, I saw this kids at the orphanage who were playing in the rain. I didn't know why I felt so emotional looking at those orphans, some of them who looked about 6-7 years old. The feeling was from God, I would say that I decided to enter the gate of the orphanage. There I met an Ustaz of the orphans and he told me the background of some of the orphans which was very saddening. Some were brought up there since they were born because they were left at the door of the orphanage. :'(

I asked the man if they were being given any education but he was reluctant to enlighten me. He just told me that those children attend religious classes everyday. Only that?! That was the question is ting-tonging in my head. I left the orphanage after bidding them goodbye.

When I came back home, I told my mum about the encounter and I even felt like doing something to help them in some way. I called the Ustaz I spoke to earlier, I told him I'm a teacher and I would like volunteer to teach the kids during weekend but he said the management do not take any non-muslims there. Okay fine whateverrr! Then, I ask him if I can organize a tea-party for them, and he said yes, but the venue should be in the orphanage.

Since the kids are having Hari Raya Korban celebration on Sunday, I was asked to come on Saturday. Thus, with the kind help of my cousins, I had the party on Saturday (today) and it went out great! Yay to me! *wink wink*

There are 37 of them, so I brought them meehoon, KFC, nuggets and fries, packet drinks, ice-cream and goodie bags! Played some games with them, they had fun and I received lotsa love! With God's blessing, I hope I'd be given more opportunities to bring smiles on their faces! :)

* I have pictures in my cam, will upload them soon!

Ohhh I am having ice-cream as dizet. Ohsemmm!

Good day bloggers! ;)

Have you come across people with severe tongue ties or hooligans trying to learn a new language? Coz I do almost everyday! *irritated tone*

There is this one online forum I visit almost everyday. Visitors get to share their opinions and comments in any topics they want to. There is so many (trust me when I use the word 'so') visitors who spell AWESOME as OHSEM, OHSEMMM, spell HANDSOME as HENSEM, spell DESSERT as DIZET. Like seriously, wtf right! This is evidence of hooligans learning a language. What a pity lah! I hope someone really helps them get their spelling right.

**Monologue: Idiots, can't you all just spell AWESOME instead? Crazy-effing attitude!


Those hooligans are still forgivable. But, not the people with severe tongue ties who has pronunciation problems. These people should really be strangled! (Again, trust me when I use the word 'really'.)
"Yayunk skew lagu nieh. Nk bg video nieh kt owg. skew twol!" (qoated)

Ehh bodoh, geli tahu tak!! If I meet these people, seriously I'll spit on their faces.


God bless them. '_'

Goodnight you all.

I DON'T WORK, I'M A PRINCESS!

hola! after having a breather for nearly a year, i'm back to my extremely dusty blog! :D

okay, for a start, lemme tell you, i started blogging again to have fresh beginning in my life. life is full of wonderful surprises and i'm gonna be optimistic about it. :)

the best surprise - i'm unemployed (for nearly six months), it's a hassle-free life where i get to enjoy a cup of hot piping milo while writing, sitting in my pyjamas on a warm comfy bed in this cold rainy weather. i don't have to worry about getting up early for work/college and sometimes i even sleep till noon! tee-hee! i feel like a baby, seriously..or more like a piggy? :P

i'm no kidding, i enjoy being home with my family and i'll end up with severe depression if they send me to sabah/sarawak to teach. i'm not up to that challenge anymore after enjoying my luxurious and comfortable life at home. so much love here! '_'

enough of my unemployment for now. it doesn't matter much to me, in fact. i tell you what, i'm falling in love with nicholas sparks, no! actually his novels! i love his clean and sentimental romantic novels and when i finish reading them, i keep thinking of the characters for a few days. it's crazy i know! among the best ones i love are #message in a bottle, #safe haven, #the last song. i have no words for that dude who can write gripping tales of love and knows how to tug at his reader's heartstrings.
**note to myself: this tales don't happen in real life. sigh.
**currently reading: #the notebook (my 24th bday gift from puvi, kamini, & dharsh) xoxo!

let's talk about FACEBOOK now. i used to spend shitty hours doing nothing on it and now this same thingy is driving me nuts. i'm off fb for a while btw, not sure how long! like seriously, why is my newsfeed always flooded with posting and spp interview? has these people actually lose meaning in their lives? guys, life is beautiful if you know it and there are basically many other things you can update on besides these two. seize the moments, por favor! it's kinda surprising that people who never even serious about exams are being so extremely worried about the interview which is 3 weeks away. *smirks*

okay, that's all for now! will be back soon with more updates! love to all!